nein!!

so for today it will just be easier to copy and post the email i sent to my boyfriend for yall. i cant upload pics yet because there is no memory card reader here. so here goes.

so today was beautiful and you know what? this keyboard is pissing me off because the z and the y are switched so from now on everytime i type a z it means y and vice versa. haha so todaz we went on the guided bus tour and i got so manz amaying photos! it is so beautiful here but we walked around for several hours afterwards again so mz feet are killin me. some random guz started following our group and the tour guide had to tell him to go awaz lol. i had some turkish food for lunch which was amaying and then for dinner we had something called currzworst. everzone had to eat it and i think thats what i got sick from. ugh. serious stomach problems right now. fml. but the weather is great. it switches from warm to cold about everz 10 minutes haha so its kinda nice. we saw the hotel that michael jackson was at when he hung the babz over the edge hahahahaaha. our tour guide for the bus tour was sooo funnz. apparentlz berlin is the gazest citz in the world hha. ill explain that when i get home. it has to do with nayis hehe. the teacher that we came with is soooo annozing though. she is so stupid. i had to tell her where to go at least 12 times todaz. zeah. me with the directional issues had to tell her where to go. theres something not right about that lol. and she onlz cares about what she wants to do and she wont let us go off on our own so we have to follow her everzwhere. she treats us like we are 10. ugh. please have fun and if anz girls give zou a hard time lemme know and ill take care of them ;) haha including rachel! ha! so anzwaz have fun at zour grill thing. i cant even describe how much i miss zou right now. i love zou so much. please text me as much as possible! i love it!

love,
zour girlfriend and future wifez :)
ps. onlz 8 more dazs until i can be in zour arms again. i miss zou sweetheart.

 

ill try again with the pics tomorrow.

goodnight guys :)

Freaky-deaky dutch?!

So day one in europe is officially complete! I havent slept in almost 48 hours and I cant figure out how to work this keyboard so this one will be short! Long plane ride plus walking tour of berlin, germany was crazy. it is beautiful here! i miss my boyfriend like crazy though :( tomorrow will be the guided tour of berlin so i am pretty excited. i will try and upload some photos tomorrow but i have limited time on these computers.

hope all is well with all of yall and i wish everyone a very happy summer!

Dirty Little Secret

Honesty is something that I value greatly. I always like to give people the benefit of the doubt, meaning that I will trust you until you give me a reason not to trust you anymore. Maybe that is a bad thing; trusting too easily. But it is the way I have done it my entire life. I have gotten my heart broken twice before. Both times for the same reason. I was cheated on. So you'd think that I'd have an excuse to not trust people. Yet for some reason, I still always give people the benefit of the doubt.

What I don't understand, is why people can't just be honest. If someone asks you to please be honest with them no matter what, and they even say "Just tell me and I won't be mad" then you need to tell them what's going on. I can't stand sketchy business/people. In my opinion, if you feel like you have to lie about something, or hide something from me, then you either don't know me very well, you don't trust me, or you know you did something wrong. If you fuck up...tell me. Don't hide it and let me figure it out on my own. Do people realize how badly hiding something from a person can hurt them?

I have all the reason in the world to not trust anyone. I have had ex-bestfriends that have stabbed me in the back, stolen from me, lied to me, lied about me, and gotten me in trouble for things that they did just so they could cover their own asses. I have had boyfriends that have lied to me, spoken badly behind my back, and cheated on me multiple times. I have had family lie to me, make fun of me in a hurtful way, disrespect me, and be mean to me in a physical way. To put it in short, I have been hurt by just about everyone that I have ever given my trust to. I hate myself for being so easy to trust people, but I just keep hoping that one day I will find someone who is completely honest to me 100 percent of the time.

I am starting to lose faith in the word trust though. Too many things have happened that have had a negative impact on my view of trust, and not enough things have had a positive impact. I do not want to get to the point where I simply don't trust anyone anymore, however my life seems to be headed in that direction.

This Europe trip that I am going on is coming at a perfect time. I need to get away from everything and everyone here. At least for a little while. I won't have my phone so I will have minimal contact with everyone here but that's fine with me. I just want to get out and focus on myself, and enjoy summer in such a beautiful location.

To all the liars out there, you will end up with nothing someday. Just wait and see.

RAGE

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp......... :]

Goodnight All! New posts tomorrow!

Save Me San Francisco

What an intense couple of weeks. Sorry for neglecting my blog lately. I promise to be better ;) So the Jam for Japan was a HUGE success!! The bands were all wonderful and people really enjoyed being there. We raised almost $3,000 for the American Red Cross to go toward Japan relief! I am so proud of myself and everyone else who helped organize this event! Even though I will be graduated, I hope the graphic design class carries this on as tradition and hosts an event next year that is even better!

Today is my last day of high school...EVER! I have my astronomy exam in just a few hours, and I really should be studying, but I'm too excited to even begin to focus on that. Tomorrow I can relax and sleep late, and then thursday morning, we have our "senior breakfast" at the school, followed by graduation rehearsal. Yeah... apparently we have to practice standing in straight lines.... HA. Oh well, it just means I am one step closer to actually walking across that stage!!

My friends and I attempted to pull what could have potentially been the best senior prank in the history of our schools' senior pranks. We were going to close all of the gates leading into the parking lot so that students and busses would not be able to leave, and parents would not be able to get in. Funny right? Yeah well everything was going great until the volleyball coach decided to leave early. She ended up calling the security guards, and they got the locks cut before school even let out. It was a huge dissapointment. However it did accomplish one thing; Pissing off a lot of the faculty! And that's all that matters ;)

My graduation ceremony is this Saturday! I can't believe that it is less than 5 days away! My whole family is coming into town to watch me walk across the stage and I am just so excited! Wow, I'm tearing up right now just thinking about it. All of this stress building up these past few weeks is just...gone. I feel so great. After graduation my family and I are going out to dinner at one of my favorite restaurants; Kobe Steakhouse. YUM. And then 2 days later on monday, I leave for europe! Yes, that's right, I am going to Europe :) It won't be my first time in Europe since my grandma lives in the Netherlands, however, it will be my first time going on my own, without my parents! I will be touring Germany, Austria, Switzerland, and The Czech Republic! I will try to keep my blog updated on a daily basis and let everyone know how things are and what I did every day of my trip, but hotel internet is unreliable, and I will not be staying in the same hotel for more than one night. It is going to be such a fantastic experience though!

Can you tell how much better/less stressed I am? My posts are about to start getting a hell of a lot more interesting :)

Have a wonderful day, and a fantastic summer everyone!

Jam for Japan!

Helloooo afternoon class!!! This is my personal blog, but I PROMISE you guys that nothing I write about has anything to do with the title of my blog. It is simply an attention grabber haha :)

My first order of business is that I'd like to thank Kameron specifically for creating his blog to keep us informed on whats going on with yall. It will help so much!

Secondly, here's what happened in this morning's (6/2) meeting! WE WILL BE PUTTING A SLIP-AND-SLIDE DOWN THE MIDDLE OF THE ATRIUM! ...........just kidding.. Heres the real list of everything that we discussed :)
1. Krissy was able to bring 3 coolers, 400 hot cups, 200 cold cups, and 400 napkins! Go Krissy!
2. Ryan was able to bring a cooler and spoke to an art store and got quite a few things. He was able to make a deal for everyone who buys a poster, to get 10%off of a custom frame from her store. The woman was also more than happy to donate some raffle items, and even asked us if we would be willing to use her studio space on June 25 to host another art show! If anyone would be interested in that, let us know!
3. We could still use more coolers since we are going to have to transport all of the food plus the 300lbs of ice.
4. Mrs. Harman was able to get her son to add to the raffle items, and put in things like mugs and keychains, and even possibly one free hellicopter lesson! Not kidding!
5. We still are going to need more cups, plates, napkins, and plasticware, red if possible. Kameron said he was willing to get these things, however, those items can get a bit pricy and I am sure he would be thankful if anyone else could help out with that too!
6. As for me, I specifically need a few things for the food. I desperately need large tupperware boxes to put the food in for transport in the coolers, and I need lots of sample cups! The kind that grocery stores put their food samples in! If anyone at all can get any of those things, please bring it up to the school tomorrow!! I will be up here after school to pick everything up.
7. We have been passing out flyers at the middle school next to us, and have gotten a very positive response from many of the kids! :)
8. We still need people to sign up for Coffee Manager and Japan Card Overseer. The coffee manager will be handling all of the coffee pots, and pouring coffee for anyone who comes by and would like some. The Japan Card Overseer needs to be responsible. We are planning of posting a huge piece of paper on the wall with our logo in the center, and allowing people to sign their names and/or write a little message to the people of Japan. We will be sending this card with the donations to the American Red Cross. The Japan Card Overseer needs to be in charge of the markers. A person will come up to you and pay 25 cents to use a marker and write on the card. We need to make sure we get ALL of the markers back!
9. We noticed that Kameron was also signed up to bring tortilla chips. I am not sure if he is still willing to do so or not, but eiter way, we are going to need MULTIPLE people to bring tortilla chips! We have 2 different dips that require tortilla chips, and have a feeling that these will be very popular.
10. Everyone please wear your Jam for Japan t-shirt tomorrow!
11. We are also planning on selling cans of sodas for $1 (profits go to Japan of course) but in order to do that, we will need soda donations. A few people in the morning class will be buying some sodas but the more we have, the better. We will sell them until we run out.
12. WE NEED POWER STRIPS AND EXTENTION CORDS!
13. If anyone has walkie-talkies please bring those
14. Miekala- Please bring the face painting book, as well as another kit if possible
15. Today our main goal is to get everything priced out.
16. If we could get another roll of tickets in a different color that would be great! we will have 2 different raffles-one small item raffle, and one large item raffle.
17. Last thing, we need sugar, non-dairy creamer, and stirring sticks for the coffee. And if anyone is willing to possibly raid Pei Wei or some other Asian resturant and maybe steal some fortune cookies.......... we thought that those might be cute to help decorate the food table.

I believe that is all for today. I know it is a lot. And if i think of anything else, I will text Kameron and let him know. Thanks for all your hard work!!! I am so excited!